Indeed. It has been awhile since my last post.
Since then, many things have happened in my life, career ...
Business has not been as good as I had imagined after "merging" with
a trusted partner.
I thought to myself, "Ah, at least some semblance of a profitable and
stable business." After 10 months, accusations came from all
directions that I have mismanaged the business and not done enough to
ensure that the business remains viable.
"Shit", I thought to myself, I'm being screwed again! Sigh, the one
lesson that I have learnt in running a business, never, never enter
into a partnership unless, the prospects are too irresistible to
ignore or someone is willing to put in a shit load of money with no
strings - Haha, wishful thinking .. or maybe in a perfect world?
So, I'm alone again, picking up the pieces again, feeling abandoned,
used and taken for a ride.
For most people though, or at least the weaker ones, they would give
up, crawl under a dark space and hide for the rest of their lives in
their shadow of failure. Not me, frustrating as it seems, I will
continue the fight to survive. Not to prove anything, but because I
believe in myself and I know that there is something here to develop.
It's my destiny, you could say.
I know it's been tough. People my age, or my peers at least, have
progressed in their careers, earning commendable salaries, and me,
sometimes, not having a dime in my pocket to have lunch. But should I
feel envy? Should I be jealous of my far better of friends? Hmmm ...
I had a chat with one of them the other day. He is typical of the
type that I had mentioned before. Good education, climbed the
corporate ladder. He is definitely someone, the headhunters would
want to keep in their database.
So why did he seem dazed? Why did he seem lost? Yes, he said it. He
was going through an identity crisis. He is at the crossroads of his
life. A little jaded with the current career and with not much idea
where to progress from here. You could say that he has reached the
top of his learning curve and has nothing really to look forward to
in life.
I asked him why he was not happy? He said, that I may have the idea
that he has "made it in life" but he said at that point, he would
rather throw everything away and become a taxi driver ... simple and
straight. Drive passengers to their destination and the only person
you have to answer to is yourself.
He said that the stress that he has to endure, not only fulfilling
his job's expectations, but the expectations of at least 10 other
people .. peers, bosses from other departments, clients etc etc, is
perhaps not worth the pay that he is earning.
So, we all can be unhappy and say that the grass is always greener on
the other side.
Truth is ... it isn't. Appreciate what you have, no matter how little
it is. Someone's always got it worse!
